In Absence

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Debut album from Philadelphia, PA-based musician Connor McNamee. Also features members of Alustrium and Black Crown Initiate. Available 5/27/16!

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released May 27, 2016

Connor McNamee- Lead/rhythm guitar, clean vocals, songwriting, lyrics
Nick Shaw (Black Crown Initiate) - Bass guitar, engineering
Jerry Martin (Alustrium) - Harsh vocals

Also featuring:
Andy Thomas (Black Crown Initiate) - guest guitar solo on "Our Rose Garden"
Ethan McKenna- guest guitar solo on "The Ecstasy of Dreams"
Ceia Schweitzer- lyrics for "Our Rose Garden" inspired by poem of the same name

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Track Name: In Absence of Air
Light
Light and air
Intertwine
Create life
Fear and despair
Snuff out hope
And tighten the noose around your gasping throat

So much time wasted
Begging in vain
A life led in constant searching
Now ends in the cold and the rain
The air grows thinner
Gasping desperately
The flame grows dimmer
Until in darkness I no longer see

Look to the skies above
With your questions and your prayers
Look up above
And find only despair
Look to the skies above
And find only broken hope
Find bitter cold
And an absence of air

Hollow
Empty words
Lying tongues were spoken
Promises broken
Gone
Without a trace
Without any answer
Like the air below the waves and above in the heavens

Once the air would carry me
In a distant dream
Now it abandons me
I spread my wings and crash into the sea
Once the sun shone hope and love
And the sky above
Once the night held mystery
Now it brings only pain and fear to me

Look to the skies above
With your questions and your prayers
Look up above
And find only despair
Look to the skies above
And find only broken hope
Find bitter cold
And an absence of air

Now I beg the stars to fall
The waves to cease
The mountains to crumble
Now I feel only despair
Feel only the cold
In absence of air
Track Name: Our Rose Garden
Vines
Vines growing higher
Extending towards the sun
Like fingers desperately grasping,
Reaching for a hand from above

I beg you now
Pull me from this darkness
I'm reaching towards you
I'm reaching for your light

The darkness swells around me
The windows overgrown
The vines constricting me
Blot out the only light I've ever known

The roses beautiful,
The red of light divine
The vines and thorns around them
Trapping me deep inside

Crumble
Flicker
Draw back
Draw back from the light of love

Infatuated with the dark, I hide out from the light
Perpetuate my suffering, I bite the hand that feeds
Destroy all that you love, until there's nothing left
Consumed in roses and thorns, I waste away
Track Name: The Threat of a Terrible Storm
On the looming horizon
Thunder is deafening
The sky is blackening
Man is blankly staring
Silent, remaining
In the face of the gathering storm

Foul the fumes of decay have grown
The sun begins to die
The danger is yet unknown
Soon, we will surely learn
But we are too far gone
So now must our paradise burn

We wonder why
We marvel at our suicide
We stand alone
But we die as one

Death, it seems, will be
The sentence we receive
There will be no end
There will be no reprieve

We wonder why (God, why?)
We’ve begged to suffer (To drown)
The storm it grows (We can’t hold on)
Rot and decay (decay)

Waste what putrid breath remains
Begging to change your fate
A fate that we have sewn
Now we all will pay, broken and alone

Burn, in a torturous blaze
May your blackened flesh
Mask your dying shame
Break under the weight of guilt
The knife we forged ourselves
Driven in to the hilt

We wonder why
We marvel at our suicide
We stand alone
But we die as one
Track Name: Burn Down the Sky
Rain
Rain sickness down on me
The furious wind leaves me blind, eternally
The storm emerges from my own soul
The air, it grows so cold
My heart is left to decay
My mind leaves me all alone

Oh, how hollow
Oh, the numbness gives way to pain

The pain
As I begin to crumble
The burden of emptiness
The mind a void of weakness, distress
The shell of what used to be
Where once stood flesh and bone
Now a tomb made of stone

Oh, such sorrow
Oh, the emptiness sets in again

Ablaze, I ascend to the heavens
To burn down the sky
A new flame is born
Fill the void with light
The stone within me crumbles
The flesh once again revealed
The still-bleeding wounds within me
Begin to heal

The sky is fire
And all is light
The sky is fire
And I am alive
Burn
Track Name: Abandon
Give me peace
Give me the love, I need it so
Don't turn away
Give me closure before you go
Tell me the answers
Because I just can't find my way
Please give me a reason, give me a purpose,
Please come and save me from this hell that you've made for me

But alas, you've left me to burn
All alone
And you're still unapologetic
As I cling to what's left of my heart

Do you remember
The dream we shared so long ago
Or have you forgotten
All that we could never me
Or maybe you never knew
Maybe you never saw me like I saw you
So I'm letting go now

And now, the time has come
To reclaim my soul
And I'll begin healing
And you'll be forgiven

Leave me behind,
Make me believe your love is a lie
Track Name: The Ecstasy of Dreams
I submit myself to darkness
With the promise of catching a glimpse
Of the wonder, the immaculate beauty
Of the face which haunts my dreams
I succumb to the addiction
Thirsting for the sickness she brings
The desire, the unbearable longing
Of her blood coursing through my veins

In this reality I'm am shattered
Here in the light I grow weak
Alone in darkness only then am I alive
Alone with her in the sweet embrace of sleep

I fight my way to dreaming
Reality now feels empty and cold
Below the waves of my mind
I escape into her embrace so sweet
The sea it drags me deeper
But I gave up fighting long ago
I feel no pain, I feel no fear
Just an overwhelming ecstasy

In this reality I am shattered
Here in the light I grow weak
Alone in darkness only then am I alive
Alone with her in the sweet embrace of sleep

I long for darkness
In slumber I escape from it all
I hide my face from reality
The ecstasy of dreams so sweet

Suffocating under the waves, I'm dying slow
Buried inside a dream I'm sinking low
Ever deeper, my lungs burning now dragged below
Cut of from reality, just let me go, free me from this pain

Surface from beneath the waves
To forge a new reality
Where daylight and dreams align
Where our paths and hands intertwine
Track Name: In Absence of Fear
Feel the cold
Burn through your bones
Whispers of love and sin
In the day
Dreams all fade
Fears of old setting in
The air is thin
Cold is the wind
Cold is your absence here

Cold is your absence here
In your absence I live in fear

I survive
Broken but alive
Ever healing still
Hope remains
Running through my veins
My soul goes on
In this place
Of vine and thorn
I will be reborn

Cold is your absence here
But now without you I feel no fear

Eradicate
Every memory
Snuff out the flames, I’m free
Erase
Every single trace
Of that fear that held me fast

Cold is your absence here
In your absence I live in fear

You
That abandoned me
Watch your power fade
Torn
Torn apart by the thorns
But now I am reborn

Now I’ve watched the stars as they fell to the earth
The waves have ceased; the oceans have dried
The mountains no longer reach up toward the sky
But I feel no despair as my world is shattered
I feel no cold
Just a calming peace and an absence of fear